"can you describe what it's like?...I feel nothing."

Indisposition - Illness (sometimes referred to as ill-health or ailment) is a state of poor health. Illness is sometimes considered a synonym for disease. Others maintain that fine distinctions exist. Some have described illness as the subjective perception by a patient of an objectively defined disease.

-I'm Indisposed.

BAH HUMBUG-No, that's too stronggggg.

And I don't want the world to see me,
Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.

And you cant fight the tears that ain't coming,
Or the moment of the truth in your lies.
When everything feels like the movies,
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive.

You look familiar, where do i know you from?

I Feel Non-existent To You, Or Even Worse.
Like You Never Even Knew Me In The First Place.
Tell Me, Do You Always Lie To Everybody?
Or Was I Just An Acception? Cause Beleive Me,
Id Rather You Didnt Strain Yourself On My Account.
Seriously Though, If You Want To Be Part Of My life,
Get Your Bloody Act Together, Im Done Trying. Just Let Me Know.
Im Finished Here.